Hollow but thorough
Don't disturb the huddle
Holy in your trouble
I'm tired of being subtle.
Just shut up now
And love me
Because you were supposed to save me
I don't need a martyr
Just someone to hold me
Dynamite is lonely.

Wish I may
Wish I might
Diffuse this dream
That's not quite right
Rabid aggression
Lynx-eyed obsession
The invisible assailant
Bludgeons the tension
Pondering negligence
Does this make any sense?
Is this becoming past
Or present tense?
Venture into a corner
Dillusions of grandeur
Growing madder by the minute
I suddenly see
No point in waking

I throw you away
Hoping you bounce back
Like a yo-yo
But it's a no go
You're a no show.
How is it so easy for you
To sink so low?
You'd give everything up
Just cos I say so?
Am I glad you'll throw this away? No.
Is it supposed to be flattering?
Cos my world is shattering.
I miss you so much
But it was up to me.
You left on my call.

Venting this frustration
Feel the pulse
Of my fist
Against a wall of steel
My mind reels
Giving me no time
To see how I feel
Wanting answers
While my head spins faster
Streamlined turbulence
Looks so strange
Feelings convoluted and deranged
Faithfully alone
Mislead and homegrown
Lick your wounds
And go on home

Bleeding angel
Enlighten me
Drawn into your wings
Don't let me see
The hurt you feel
The pain you've caused
Suffocating on ideas
It's stifling in here
Words to beautiful to endure
Make a sour face
That cuts you more
I'll sew you up, you'll see
As soon as you stop killing me
When the love is pure
All will be beautiful

Dial tone
More sane than you
Words are useless
Even though they're true
My mind divided
Take my breath away
Put words where they don't belong
There's nothing left to say
Vicious pain
Circulating me
Happiness is relative
To the progression
Of your disease

Deconstructed, day by day
Torn down and washed away
Quietly eroding, stand by me
Keep a smile on your face as you
Watch me bleed
Fading faster, dettaching
From all the sorrow
Here today, gone...

Tested the tension
A fight for control.
Let's not be so needlessly drole.
Eyes open, be alert.
Drown out the coldness
Push away the hurt.
I'm not myself but I want to be.
Must you make it so hard for me?
Understand, I try and try more.
So much easier to just even the score.

This is not where I pictured me
I'm not what I thought I'd be
How is it that lies
Are no longer shocking
Me or anybody
You'd only surprise me
If you told the truth
How did we become so jaded?
The start was majestic
And full of wonder
Which faded
Like the spark in your eye.

Flailing at the thought,
Trailing after you
Somehow I just know
There's nothing I can do
Everything is gone now
Hopelessly lost
All feeling destroyed
Dust to dust.

Fuck you with a smile
Freeze you with denial
Charmed, won't you stay awhile
Ever feel like you're on trial?
Never go that extra mile
Heart ache
Heart break
Wretching feeling
I cannot shake
I'm fucking wasting away
Rotting out my soul
My brain
Still the one to blame
But I'm glad you came
Til you screw me too.

Add my 2 halves
To try and get the total sum
But you get none
That's what I've become
A zero
Be my hero
Come and save me from myself
I'm waiting
Can you hear me?
I feel you
When you're not near me
Don't ask why
My shrill cry
Will bring you to your knees.

Suffocate anxiety
Delerious with sobriety
Your eyes stare inside of me
Brightly shining and firey
Quake in jubilee
Send chills up
The spine of me
I feel electric
Could never regret it
Fortified by your touch
On the edge of oblivion

Back and forth
Torn in shreds
Dying inside
Eyes glare red
Sick sick souls
Sick sick minds
How deep the scars
How weak the spine
Surly unhealed wounds
Don't kill me now
It would be too soon

My head is clouded
With beautiful thoughts
And desperate words
Spinning, a vortex of my mind
I've never known a feeling of this kind
Mesmorized, lost in your eyes
Floating in their oceans
Endless emotions
Can't speak the words I need to say
And have you hear
I love you, despite the fear
Electricity shoots through me
As you hold me near
Soaring light years above earth
Yet grounded
By the steady beat of your heart

Numb, how I choose to live
My will to die
Blind
Deaf and dumb
By my side
Remain
In this time and place
Frame your face
Be gone
No longer love anyone
But me
I choose you, set you free
Night, don't speak of when
It's an all out war
And I won again.

Visions fade fast
Shattered in seconds.
You made me golden.
Now I am broken.
Spoiled.
Rusted.
Daydreams are timeless
Memories the same
I'll remember being burned by the flame.
Feelings still of bitterness and pain.
It's all a part of the game.

Back to me.
Black hole.
Center of your own soul.
Imagination takes over
Fear multiplies.
I just saw the light
Die in your eyes.
Block it out.
Bring the night into focus.
Effort causes only distortions.
Suck in a breath
And breathe relief. 

Quick blow to the head.
Lights fading faster.
Such a disaster.
Clench your fist
Slit your wrist
Make another wish.
This is what you wanted.

Kissed your mouth
Straight from your soul
Suddenly lost all control
You poured into me
Until I couldn't breathe
Clouded my mind
And smothered me
I find it hard to see clearly
You came, you conquered
Now please don't leave
Must you make it harder
Don't turn your head
Away from me
As I choke and bleed
As you seethe
There's no looking back
I'm wounded terribly
Thanks for everything, not a thing
I gave it all to you, all
For nothing.